*Update* Upon returning to this blog in the past week (January 2012), I find it only the slightest bit disheartening that I still share this sentiment. Have I really not progressed in the past 2 years?
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Show no mercy
Months ago, my old roommate saw a mouse in our kitchen. We set traps but never caught anything and I decided to let the issue slide. I had never seen the mouse and would have been otherwise unaware of its presence if it weren't for the little presents it sometimes left for us on the counter. I decided his name was Rupert and we have been living in peace for some time.
Tonight, Rupert violated that peace. He was spotted in the middle of my bedroom floor before retreating into the corner of my closet behind my shoes then eventually skittering into the hallway. That is it. I cannot allow him to crawl on my personal things. Who knows what he has touched. Tonight it became personal. Tonight Rupert must die.
Tonight, Rupert violated that peace. He was spotted in the middle of my bedroom floor before retreating into the corner of my closet behind my shoes then eventually skittering into the hallway. That is it. I cannot allow him to crawl on my personal things. Who knows what he has touched. Tonight it became personal. Tonight Rupert must die.
Talk Talk Talk
I can think of nothing more annoying than having one of my peers approach me and inform me that they know something about my life I didn't tell them and had no intention of sharing. If there is one thing that I agree with boys about, its the fact that girls talk too much....and to the wrong people under the wrong circumstances.
A couple of undesirable situations have begun to arise. I suppose I'll have to just wait and see what the consequences of the past couple of weeks will be.
Hopefully the stress will subside soon. But I really don't see that happening until at least next Thursday. Exams are gross.
A couple of undesirable situations have begun to arise. I suppose I'll have to just wait and see what the consequences of the past couple of weeks will be.
Hopefully the stress will subside soon. But I really don't see that happening until at least next Thursday. Exams are gross.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Abnormal Psychology Syllabus:
"NOTE: It is tempting for people taking this course to start diagnosing themselves and/or their friends and family when they learn about the criteria for different psychological disorders. Please remember that...many people can demonstrate some characteristics of a given disorder without experiencing clinically significant impairment or distress."
Truth.
"NOTE: It is tempting for people taking this course to start diagnosing themselves and/or their friends and family when they learn about the criteria for different psychological disorders. Please remember that...many people can demonstrate some characteristics of a given disorder without experiencing clinically significant impairment or distress."
Truth.
Dance, dance, dance till you're dead
My date function's theme is "Bright and Tight". Our social chairs failed to realize that isn't a theme...that's just two adjectives. And, might I add, not complimentary ones. What happened to "Disney" or "Jungle" theme? Can't wait to see a plethora of boys and girls in blinding spandex.
Smile for the camera
I've come to believe that photography is more difficult that in appears. Not because the act of taking a picture is hard but finding a subject is. Photographing people is especially tricky because in my experience, as soon as somebody sees a camera (especially a big ass SLR), they respond in one of two ways. Either they will cringe and protest you taking their picture or they will get up in your face and insist that you capture of them cheesin. For somebody who loves photography, its odd how anxious I get when I think about the attention it attracts. I guess I spent too much time wandering around the halls of my highschool, enduring harassment from strangers that wanted me to document their lives.
Looks like I'll be sticking to the still life scene.
Looks like I'll be sticking to the still life scene.
When I get that feeling....
Why is sex such a big deal? Or at least that first time. Everybody puts so much pressure on the first time being right. I think you mostly need to wait for somebody who truly cares about you because of how awkward it is. Who wants to share such a (potentially) painful and embarassing experience with a stranger?
So whats the best option? Get the first time over with so you can go on and enjoy sexual exploration but risk negative psychological consequences of "giving it up" too early or hold onto that "gift" until you reach an age where it almost feels like a burden?
(And this is what I'm thinking about instead of studying...fantastic)
So whats the best option? Get the first time over with so you can go on and enjoy sexual exploration but risk negative psychological consequences of "giving it up" too early or hold onto that "gift" until you reach an age where it almost feels like a burden?
(And this is what I'm thinking about instead of studying...fantastic)
Monday, September 14, 2009
Love Love Love
A friend made a love list. I think its a good way to keep positive so here goes.
Currently I love:
Riesling white wine
Bright Eyes
Printing photos in the darkroom
Being tan
Birds of paradise (planet earth in general)
Joyce Carol Oates
I suppose while I'm at it, not a fan of:
Awkward or dramatic situations
Feeling cheap
Reading for class
Not having my car
Currently I love:
Riesling white wine
Bright Eyes
Printing photos in the darkroom
Being tan
Birds of paradise (planet earth in general)
Joyce Carol Oates
I suppose while I'm at it, not a fan of:
Awkward or dramatic situations
Feeling cheap
Reading for class
Not having my car
All work and no play?
False.
Lately it has been quite the opposite. I drank 7 out of the last 10 nights. I slept at apartments that are not my own two of those nights. Yesterday I went to the pool then out to dinner and had somebody invited me to something else, I probably wouldn't have done any reading at all. Very little work has been done since school has started and it appears I am falling onto a worse pattern this year than I have in past years. I blame the fact that the majority of my friends this year are 21 or older and it seems to be much easier to fill my social calendar.
I suppose I need to buckle down....tomorrow.
Lately it has been quite the opposite. I drank 7 out of the last 10 nights. I slept at apartments that are not my own two of those nights. Yesterday I went to the pool then out to dinner and had somebody invited me to something else, I probably wouldn't have done any reading at all. Very little work has been done since school has started and it appears I am falling onto a worse pattern this year than I have in past years. I blame the fact that the majority of my friends this year are 21 or older and it seems to be much easier to fill my social calendar.
I suppose I need to buckle down....tomorrow.
Monday, August 17, 2009
10 thing I'm going to do this year:
1. Finish my reading for class before it's due. I say this every semester but maybe if I actually put it in writing, I'll stick to it.
2. Go to the gym. Its free, why not?
3. Not let my social worker complex get the best of me. I don't need to 'take care' of any of my friends who can't handle taking care of themselves.
4. Streak the lawn.
5. Go to as many tri sig events as possible (That is, if tri sig isn't in the crapper because of some events last year)
6. Talk to a stranger in each of my classes.
7. Take pictures. Life should be documented.
8. Spend some quality time on the lawn. I never seem to go there other than walking to classes.
9. Go to Monticello
10. Maybe learn how to do something new?
Yes I realize I'm not being very ambitious....whatevs.
1. Finish my reading for class before it's due. I say this every semester but maybe if I actually put it in writing, I'll stick to it.
2. Go to the gym. Its free, why not?
3. Not let my social worker complex get the best of me. I don't need to 'take care' of any of my friends who can't handle taking care of themselves.
4. Streak the lawn.
5. Go to as many tri sig events as possible (That is, if tri sig isn't in the crapper because of some events last year)
6. Talk to a stranger in each of my classes.
7. Take pictures. Life should be documented.
8. Spend some quality time on the lawn. I never seem to go there other than walking to classes.
9. Go to Monticello
10. Maybe learn how to do something new?
Yes I realize I'm not being very ambitious....whatevs.
Sometimes sorry is just a five letter word....
I don't understand how some people can think that saying sorry would erase months of inappropriate behavior. More often, actions speak louder than words. You want to say you're sorry? Don't be a dick to me or those I love.
A song I like
Guster- Either Way
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6vghSLxCyI
Poison in everything you said
Don't you, don't you
Wonder what difference does it make....
Either way?
Were you ever kind, were you always cruel?
Who's ever seen that other side of you?
Happened every time, so it must be true
Where did you learn it's either him or you?
You were almost kind, you were almost true
Don't let me see that other side of you
You have learned in time that you must be cruel
I'll have to wait to get the best of you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6vghSLxCyI
Poison in everything you said
Don't you, don't you
Wonder what difference does it make....
Either way?
Were you ever kind, were you always cruel?
Who's ever seen that other side of you?
Happened every time, so it must be true
Where did you learn it's either him or you?
You were almost kind, you were almost true
Don't let me see that other side of you
You have learned in time that you must be cruel
I'll have to wait to get the best of you
Surprise!
Life has been full of exciting, stressful, confusing surprises lately. Its hard to decide what to make of everything. Oh well...I guess I'll just have to wait and see.
Oh sweet summer, where have you gone?
As I find the end of the summer fast approaching, I think it would be nice to reflect on some thing that happened. This summer was actually fairly uneventful and I can't really say that I'm upset about that. After working for 8 hours, 5 days a week last summer, I decided this year would be a good time to chill before I have to enter the real world and begin working my ass of everyday for the rest of my life.
I did take a class. It was fantastic. I learned a lot of behind-the-scenes stuff concerning the food industry and why corporate america cannot be trusted...but as a sociology buff, that I already knew. Mostly I liked the class because of the people I met. I was told I would meet people I would never normally meet during the year and that was entirely true. That class was a wonderful surprise and I only hope to stay in touch with those I met.
After my class, I chose the life of luxury. I go to the pool almost everyday, then drink with the same people almost every night. It's a blast when its happening but makes me wonder about the future because to be honest, I have absolutely no direction. I've met some wonderful new friends this summer and a few who have already graduated. Talking to them reminds me that graduation really isn't that far away and when it gets here, I should have some sort of a plan or I'm screwed. What am I supposed to do? Grad school? Get a job? Backpack through Europe? Move back in with my parents? Its all very stressful, especially during those times that I feel like I don't have any passion. I like psychology, but am I passionate about it? What can I do to make some sort of impression on the world or at least those around me? I guess I have two more years of college to figure out the next step.
This summer flew by. I suppose if I could redo it, I would work a little harder to get a job but then again, if today were the first day of summer, I probably wouldn't be doing anything differently.
I did take a class. It was fantastic. I learned a lot of behind-the-scenes stuff concerning the food industry and why corporate america cannot be trusted...but as a sociology buff, that I already knew. Mostly I liked the class because of the people I met. I was told I would meet people I would never normally meet during the year and that was entirely true. That class was a wonderful surprise and I only hope to stay in touch with those I met.
After my class, I chose the life of luxury. I go to the pool almost everyday, then drink with the same people almost every night. It's a blast when its happening but makes me wonder about the future because to be honest, I have absolutely no direction. I've met some wonderful new friends this summer and a few who have already graduated. Talking to them reminds me that graduation really isn't that far away and when it gets here, I should have some sort of a plan or I'm screwed. What am I supposed to do? Grad school? Get a job? Backpack through Europe? Move back in with my parents? Its all very stressful, especially during those times that I feel like I don't have any passion. I like psychology, but am I passionate about it? What can I do to make some sort of impression on the world or at least those around me? I guess I have two more years of college to figure out the next step.
This summer flew by. I suppose if I could redo it, I would work a little harder to get a job but then again, if today were the first day of summer, I probably wouldn't be doing anything differently.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Bored?
www.whatshouldireadnext.com
I'm a little too into this site
www.sporcle.com
3 hours spent doing nothing with random people I'd recently met at beach week.
www.textsfromlastnight.com
some people's phones should be confiscated
www.gnod.net
I don't actually know what this is
www.limenviolet.com
yes, I knit. you should too. you'll be warmer.
www.jwed.com
facebook told me to...
I'm a little too into this site
www.sporcle.com
3 hours spent doing nothing with random people I'd recently met at beach week.
www.textsfromlastnight.com
some people's phones should be confiscated
www.gnod.net
I don't actually know what this is
www.limenviolet.com
yes, I knit. you should too. you'll be warmer.
www.jwed.com
facebook told me to...
"But some people can't tell where it hurts...
they can't calm down, they can't ever stop howling"
-The Blind Assassin, page 2
I don't read enough. TV has become too much of a filler for me these days. But shortly after arriving home a couple weeks ago, I realized, to my horror, that my parents had canceled all of the good channels and now we only recieve the basic 3, 4, 5, 7, 17,and 20. How shall I ever entertain myself? Certainly I can't be expected to leave the house! So I read. And I love here. Because I also love lists, here are 10 books I am trying to get through before the end of the summer:
1. The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood
2, 3, 4, and 5. The Twilight Series by Stephenie Meyer (I know, I know...and I was so determined to hate Edward Cullen. I blame Tini)
6. Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
7. Venus in Furs by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch (because I can no longer go through life without reading the novel by the man "masochism" was termed after)
8. Animal Farm by George Orwell
9. Catch-22 by Joseph Heller (I did a report on it in 11th grade, I figure I should actually read it...sorry Mr. Lee)
10. The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
I'll also be reading anything I can get my hands on for cheap by Joyce Carol Oates. I figure now is a good time to say that if you are wondering what I would like for my birthday, I want a 17" VW Jetta rim with a tire attached, a better, faster, stronger (and smaller) laptop, or some sort of gift certificate with which I can purchase these books, although I do already own some of them.
In the words of White Goodman, I like to break a mental sweat.
**update** I didn't quite read as much as I intended but I did make it through Blind Assassin, all four Twilight books, and Alias Grace (which isn't on the list but whatever)
-The Blind Assassin, page 2
I don't read enough. TV has become too much of a filler for me these days. But shortly after arriving home a couple weeks ago, I realized, to my horror, that my parents had canceled all of the good channels and now we only recieve the basic 3, 4, 5, 7, 17,and 20. How shall I ever entertain myself? Certainly I can't be expected to leave the house! So I read. And I love here. Because I also love lists, here are 10 books I am trying to get through before the end of the summer:
1. The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood
2, 3, 4, and 5. The Twilight Series by Stephenie Meyer (I know, I know...and I was so determined to hate Edward Cullen. I blame Tini)
6. Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
7. Venus in Furs by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch (because I can no longer go through life without reading the novel by the man "masochism" was termed after)
8. Animal Farm by George Orwell
9. Catch-22 by Joseph Heller (I did a report on it in 11th grade, I figure I should actually read it...sorry Mr. Lee)
10. The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
I'll also be reading anything I can get my hands on for cheap by Joyce Carol Oates. I figure now is a good time to say that if you are wondering what I would like for my birthday, I want a 17" VW Jetta rim with a tire attached, a better, faster, stronger (and smaller) laptop, or some sort of gift certificate with which I can purchase these books, although I do already own some of them.
In the words of White Goodman, I like to break a mental sweat.
**update** I didn't quite read as much as I intended but I did make it through Blind Assassin, all four Twilight books, and Alias Grace (which isn't on the list but whatever)
Friday, May 8, 2009
This is a lesson in procrastination
So its finals week and what do I spend my time doing? Looking at interior decorating blogs.
I have a new obsession...I can't help it. I love love love interior decorating. Not like, classic stuff but crazy color schemes and odd things. Can't wait to move into my now place in three weeks :)
Oh and ever since childhood, I have been cultivating a massive collection of paint chip samples. I have never actually used them to determine how to decorate a room...they're just fun to look at.
Judge me if you must.
I have a new obsession...I can't help it. I love love love interior decorating. Not like, classic stuff but crazy color schemes and odd things. Can't wait to move into my now place in three weeks :)
Oh and ever since childhood, I have been cultivating a massive collection of paint chip samples. I have never actually used them to determine how to decorate a room...they're just fun to look at.
Judge me if you must.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Take a deep breath and count to ten...
I'm sitting here about to have a nervous breakdown and of course I end up here. So here it goes... after this, I'm going to try to focus on my paper, calm down, and not think about you and your drama because I believe that eventually even you will grow up. I know shocking. I guess I like to think miracles happen. For now, I just have to try to ignore you're childish need to make me some sort of scapegoat and hopefully one day you'll learn to be a good friend.
Here's a song I like:
Better tha Ezra- Our Finest Year
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2stbMUYKC9A
I am bending
Made of steel.
I am stumbling
Towards something real.
How can you forget this feeling
Of standing straight while the world is reeling?
Don't leave me here alone.
You're as close as it gets to home.
Don't look down.
You might fall.
Life made rookies of us all.
In our finest year.
Here's a song I like:
Better tha Ezra- Our Finest Year
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2stbMUYKC9A
I am bending
Made of steel.
I am stumbling
Towards something real.
How can you forget this feeling
Of standing straight while the world is reeling?
Don't leave me here alone.
You're as close as it gets to home.
Don't look down.
You might fall.
Life made rookies of us all.
In our finest year.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Because gum is so 5 minutes ago
http://www.colgatewisp.com/wisp/HomePage
Great idea for a camping trip. Terrible idea for a night club.
Great idea for a camping trip. Terrible idea for a night club.
I reached out to touch your hand but I was watching from a distance...
Song of the moment:
Keane- The Lovers are Losing
::::Some things to keep in mind::::
1. If a shot glass feels broken, no need to inspect it. Glass will cut you.
2. Even though it was 70 yesterday, it is not ok to wear flip flops today.
3. If someone responds to "I know you" with "Evidently", walk away.
4. Contact lens prescriptions expire.
5. If windshield wipers cost 40 dollars, they better do more than wipe water from your window (according to my dad, they should wash your car for you).
6. If you can see (or hear) somebody, they can probably see (or hear) you.
Keane- The Lovers are Losing
::::Some things to keep in mind::::
1. If a shot glass feels broken, no need to inspect it. Glass will cut you.
2. Even though it was 70 yesterday, it is not ok to wear flip flops today.
3. If someone responds to "I know you" with "Evidently", walk away.
4. Contact lens prescriptions expire.
5. If windshield wipers cost 40 dollars, they better do more than wipe water from your window (according to my dad, they should wash your car for you).
6. If you can see (or hear) somebody, they can probably see (or hear) you.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
A random quote...
"Whats with you crazy Jews having these holidays that drag on for weeks at a time?"
Spectacular!
I love stupid movies. Love them. The best movies are the ones you can make fun of. Last night, I watched Spectacular! on Nick and it was phenominally horrible. Just everything about it drew me in...the unrealistic intensity of highschool "show choir" competition, the "rock star" who sounded more like a boy-band-member-gone-solo, and of course the ending that gives children the message that its ok to lose (or be disqualified) as long as you have fun.
Ok, here is a pretty choice music video for you to check out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9zt84JMn3I
Ok, here is a pretty choice music video for you to check out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9zt84JMn3I
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I'm having trouble sleeping...
...you're jumping in my bed,
twisting in my head.
I'm obsessed with this song (and the Perishers in general) right now. I know, I know. It's depressing. But who can't relate?
Ok, here it is:
The Perishers - Trouble Sleeping
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8OgWPcNA6o
twisting in my head.
I'm obsessed with this song (and the Perishers in general) right now. I know, I know. It's depressing. But who can't relate?
Ok, here it is:
The Perishers - Trouble Sleeping
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8OgWPcNA6o
Oh La la
So here is my attempt at a blog. I had one of these in middle school but I'm expecting greater things from this. Ok...I don't really have anything to say right now except....
Obey the Golden Whistle.
Obey the Golden Whistle.
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